7 things I love doing and why
Reading good books
We all believe and act out things that we don’t consciously understand, and when somebody carefully articulates exactly what it is I’ve been trying to do it gives me shivers. Bonus points when it goes completely against convention. It’s easy to get stuck and frustrated in life feeling as if nobody around you shares the same vision for themselves, or can see the blatantly obvious problems with society, and reading good books will restore your faith in humanity, help you find your voice, and help you make the changes you want to make.
Creativity isn’t something that I’ve entirely figured out just yet. I still get writers block, I still get stuck up in my head and worried about what people think, and I still spent days and weeks tearing my hair out over shit that doesn’t matter. But, when I fall into a creative flow state, there is literally nothing else in the world that matters. I literally don’t think there is (or if there is, I haven’t come across it) a better feeling than waking up to get to work on something, working all idea being so absorbed in your creation that you forget to eat, and then going to sleep even more excited than when you woke up because you got so much done, and there is so much more to do.
Tricking is my physical exercise — it’s a hybrid of martial arts, breakdancing, and acrobatics. When I first got into it it was definitely a largely egotistical thing — I loved the challenge of it, but at the same time I just got a kick out of impressing people. But now it’s just become another vehicle for creative expression. I love just blasting music and jumping around doing stupid shit and trying to move in difficult ways. Like playing a musical instrument, it’s one of those things that you can just noodle around with and improvise, and the more you fuck around with it the faster, more complicated and impressive your movements get.
Guitar is very similar to tricking from a psychological perspective. I started to impress people, since then has become another means of exploration and creative expression. At the moment I like just sitting there and trying to connect different patterns of notes on the fretboard — there are loads of different shapes that fit together in different ways over different chords etc. and I have a blast trying to explore all the different variations and figure out where the right notes are on the fretboard that I’m hearing in my head.
All my life I’ve loved the idea of putting myself in difficult situations and trying to figure out what the hell to do about it. I wasn’t aware of what I was doing until I came across Joseph Campbell’s description of the Hero and the Hero’s Journey (that’s another one of those times when I’ve read something that articulated a subconscious behavior), but I think that having the courage to do what you know is best for you in the long run, even if it hurts in the short term, is one of the most important things in my life and something that I get a huge sadistic kick out of doing.
Be skeptical when anybody tells you this because they’re probably lying. Most people give because they want to be seen as a good person, and that’s what I’ve done most of my life, and to be honest I probably still do to some extent. But recently after reading Marcus Aurelius’s book Meditations it really made me begin to realize the inherent fulfilment that comes with helping people. I still battle with my ego (the little voice in your head that is on the lookout for your self-interest and survival) but more and more I think I’m starting to see the real beauty behind living for other people. After all, what would you be without other people? The people that you surround yourself with, and the environment that you live in is responsible for an inconceivably large portion of who you are. The more you genuinely realize that I think the more you start to love people.
I love to write for a combination of all of those reasons above: I’m pushing myself, I’m reading and educating myself, I’m creatively expressing myself, and above all I’m attempting to articulate subconscious behavioural patterns I notice in myself and in others to make something click in their minds and to help them. I got into it about three years ago when I realised that I had a problem articulating myself and the way that I was feeling, and like all things worth doing, in the beginning it was super difficult to do. I struggled to close the gap between what was in my mind and what I could put on the page, and I still struggle now (who doesn’t, it’s the reason we write in the first place) but I’m getting better and my life is orders of magnitude better because of it. I don’t think there is anything more powerful (both for you and for the sake of others) than being able to carefully and accurately articulate your thoughts. As Jordan Peterson says: “If you’re a master of formulating your arguments, you win everything.”
Your quality of life is 100% dependent on your perspective.
Nothing can phase you with the right perspective. Life is beautiful. And not in a trivial way. It’s absolutely fucking mind-blowing how beautiful it can be.
The problem with maintaining perspective is that it can feel like trying to dig a hole in water – with every heave of the shovel the water just floods back in.
And for that reason it’s easy to just drift through life unconscious, blown around like a leaf in the wind, and suffering because of it.
But it doesn’t have to be like that. The more you realign with it the longer it sticks, and eventually you can entrench it permanently.
So I’m going to keep writing about it and sharing my insights, and if you want to come on this journey with me drop your email below and check out the social media icons.
Stick with me, and I’ll do my best to keep us both on track.
Much love ❤